Healthy or Abusive?

Discernment

Healthy people
Take responsibility for their needs;
Abusers
Feel everyone else should take care of their needs

Healthy people
Forgive others and themselves when mistakes are made
Abusers
Require perfection and specialize in blaming and punishing

Healthy people
Listen to criticism and evaluate it
Abusers
Assume that they are the only ones entitled to give criticism

Healthy people
try to understand others
Abusers
tell others how they should be

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Healthy people
use self-control
Abusers
lack impulse control

Healthy people
try to resolve disagreements in a win-win way
Abusers
set out to demolish whoever disagrees with them in a you-lose way

Healthy people
care about the welfare of others
Abusers
ignore the welfare of others

Healthy people
give love without strings
Abusers
always have conditions

Manipulation During Divorce Proceedings

"An abuser focuses on being charming and persuasive during a custody dispute, with an effect that can be highly misleading to Guardians ad Litem, court mediators, judges, police officers, therapists, family members, and friends. He can be skilled at discussing his hurt feelings and at characterizing the relationship as mutually destructive. He will often admit to some milder acts of violence, such as shoving or throwing things, in order to increase his own credibility and create the impression that the victim is exaggerating. He may discuss errors he has made in the past and emphasize the efforts he is making to change, in order to make his partner seem vindictive and unwilling to let go of the past."

--Lundy Bancroft, "Understanding the Batterer in Custody and Visitation Disputes"

My former husband did precisely as Lundy Bancroft describes. He used his manipulation skills to give professionals false impressions during the divorce process. I hadn't known to expect this and was shocked and frightened. I felt sure that everyone would believe him and that it would harm my children during the divorce process.

He called social services to self-report accidentally grabbing his son's neck to protect him from cars in the car rental area of the airport. He made this call after I left him, and I was filing for divorce. In reality, he choked his five-year-old son after telling him that he was going to spank him. He did this behind the rental van on a sidewalk in the airport when no cars were driving by. His report was done to misdirect authorities, giving the impression that he was an overly sensitive guy who felt unnecessary guilt. He misreported to protect himself from any accusations I might make. He used social services and a well-thought-out lie to manipulate the system.

He told the lawyers that he had willingly gone to marriage counseling and had even offered to do so again. In reality, we went to couples counseling, but he ended the sessions as soon as the counselor understood that he had anger issues. And the last time he had offered, I had just let him know that I was going to a domestic violence shelter for help. He didn't want to fix the marital issues of his abuse; he tried to gain sympathy and goodwill for himself by claiming that he was willing to try and implying that I was not.

He admitted to the lawyer that he had blocked my exit from rooms when he was mad and that I had pushed him out of the way. Sounds mutual, but I never pushed him. And the one time I tried to squeeze by him, he hit the wall next to my head and warned me that he wouldn't be so nice the next time I did that. His purpose was to intimidate me.

He told friends we had "fought," and he worried about my safety when I left. The truth was there was no fight. I had finally left to create safety for my children and myself. I left when I could feel the escalation of tension that signaled that more abuse was coming. His real reason for his words was to elicit information on where I had gone to.

He signed up for classes at the domestic violence shelter when he realized that I had gone and had reported the abuse. This impressed the workers used to dealing almost exclusively with court-ordered offenders. The problem was that he went to look conscientious and give altered versions of what had been happening in the home.

He told the judge at the second restraining hearing that divorce proceedings were going on and that I asked for a restraining order as an emotional ploy. In reality, I got a restraining order before I decided to file for divorce. And he did not, in fact, receive any news of my decision before that hearing. I initially got the restraining order to protect the children at the urging of workers at the domestic violence shelter. I also hadn't yet served him with any divorce papers at the time of that hearing. He wanted the judge to believe his side so she would drop the restraining order.

He told the therapist I took our children to after I left that he felt bad that he was too impatient with the kids sometimes. He didn't mention the bruises and other injuries. He didn't mention the threats. His words were about getting to give a friendly report to the court.

He told friends that he didn't understand why I was divorcing him and that he wanted to reconcile. He expressed how heartbroken he was. He told our friends and our children that I was divorcing him because I had found "another man." It was a lie. When I left, it was to protect the whole family from his escalating abuse. I wore my wedding ring during the divorce process and never even went on a date until half a year after the divorce was final. He was projecting his own issues onto me and trying to gain sympathy and pity.

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He changed the arrangements for one of our neutral-party witnesses for drop-offs and pick-ups of our children for his parenting time and then claimed that I abandoned the children and he had rescued them. He told me the neutral party had called him, saying he couldn't supervise on that particular day. He asked me to take the kids to church and leave them in the care of a kind elderly babysitter, and he would pick them up from her. I did as asked without thinking about checking with the usual neutral party. He picked them up as he told me he would. Two days later, my lawyer and I got letters from his lawyer declaring that I had abandoned the children at a different location than we had previously agreed to. His purpose was to sway my lawyer into believing that I wasn't psychologically balanced and I was irresponsible.

Abusers aren't honest. They're experts at mixing part truth with deception and manipulation. While we were married, my abuser's manipulation often worked with me. I was confused and pliable. I was upset each time that he told lies during the divorce process. I had believed everything he said for so long that I feared everyone else would believe him, too. But it didn't work out that way. The shelter and the judge for the temporary restraining order believed me and helped me. He didn't find out from friends where the children and I were hiding. The judge listened to the false report to the social services during a second hearing for the restraining order. Still, despite the false report, she turned the temporary restraining order into a permanent restraining order and added me under its protection (I had only asked for the children to be protected). I don't know how much sympathy he got from his given reason for the divorce, but it didn't have any long-term impact on me or the children. His show with the change of the neutral witness made him look bad when the former witness consented to write a letter to the court, verifying that my husband had planned the switch and gave her the week off. His tricks didn't work during the divorce process.

Repeatedly during the separation and divorce period, I prayed asking God to help people see the truth and to aid the children and I in staying safe. I asked him to be the final judge. And God faithfully did all of this and more.

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What to Say to Our Abused Children

A psychologist told to tell my abused child, "It isn't your fault." It is important. It is the truth. It is good advice. But I noticed it bounces off a victim's heart for a long time. Abused victims struggle with unjust guilt. It is one of the unfair things about the abuse—the victim is convinced that it is her/his fault, somehow. If only they had looked different, played differently, were more perfect, and behaved better...maybe, they wouldn't have been abused. Long after the head knows the truth, the heart still struggles.

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I discovered some other things I could say that helped my child integrate the truth of their innocence into their heart where it belongs. Little kids still think about magic and make-believe, so we can use it to bless their hearts. Try engaging her or his heart by responding to their stress with make-believe. Try saying something like, "I wish I had a magic wand, and I could have turned the abuser into X (i.e., a frog, a fly, a harmless pebble....), or “I wish I could tap you with a magic wand and make the yucky things that happened disappear forever.”

It can help your child to realize how unfair the abuser was by saying something like, "You're very strong for your age, but the abuser was so much bigger. It was really wrong for that big person to hurt you like that."

If you get hints or hunches about what the child's guilt centers around, you can address it directly. "You didn't deserve to be treated that way. No one does. No matter what, they..." (Say or do or wear or whether or not they were following the rules or what they agreed to play, etc.)

If your child is distraught or frightened and doesn't really want to talk, there are also non-verbal ways to help. I noticed when the police interviewed my child, he held the giant stuffed animal that they had in the room. So I bought a giant stuffed animal that resided on our couch for several years. I explained that my child could ask me for a hug anytime and that the big stuffed animal on the couch was there for anyone in the family to hold anytime. I would tell them that I'd noticed that I felt a little bit better when I held the cuddly dog toy, and I hoped that it might help him feel a tiny bit better, too. That stuffed animal got many hugs from all members of our traumatized family. 

If your child is acting out in anger because of the abuse, you can join them in a way that helps them feel understood and safe. More than once, I took my child to a park with a river, and we threw rocks into the water until we felt a little better. I would put words to the experience by saying things such as, "I feel angry too. Let's go throw rocks in the water," and while we threw the rocks, I would make occasional comments about it, such as "Oh, look how big this rock is. I can throw some of my mad out with this one." You can encourage other healthy actions to get out the anger, such as urging stomping and saying something like, "Most of the time, we try not to stomp around when we're upset, but today, let’s try stomping really, really hard to get some of our mad out. Stomp! Stomp!" and then something like "Hey! This is helping. I'm getting some of my mad out. Do you want to stomp, too?"

If your child feels like "they should have known" that the abuser was not trustworthy. Share the truth, "He/She fooled me too. I thought he/she was nice. But he/she wasn't what he/she seemed. He/she was sneaky and tricky." Again, you can incorporate some imagination by saying, "I thought he was fun and nice like a good puppy, but really, he was sneaky like a poisonous snake." Whatever metaphors work for you and your child can help them absorb the reality of the abuser's dishonesty and harmfulness.

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My child also needed to hear that I would have done things to protect them if I had understood what the abuser was up to. "If I had known the bad things/ yucky things he/she was doing, I would have..." Pick actions that would make your child feel safer and cherished. It isn't the time to vent your angriest picture of what you'd like to do to the abuser. "I would have built a tall wall all around him so that he couldn't hurt people"(Using make-believe) or "I would have called the police, and he/she would have been in big trouble a long time ago" or "I wouldn't have let him/her in the house because you are my special kid. I never would have let him/her do that to you."

You can't change what happened and you can't spare your child from all the pain they need to walk through. You can't rush the healing process. But you can respond in caring ways and creative ways that will help your youngster to process what happened. Try experimenting to find out how you can help your precious child recover.

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Twisted Entitlement

Wrapping our heads around how an abuser behaves is challenging for victims because an abuser's perspectives are so different from the average person's. The abuser doesn't acknowledge how hard you try to please him/her. He or she feels entitled to treat you however he or she wants. He or she feels entitled.

The abuser is thoroughly convinced that you are a debtor. He feels that you owe him:

Subservience because he believes he is the king.

· Bottomless support because she can't manage without it.

· Worship because he genuinely thinks he is better than you.

·   Obedience because she is sure she is always right.

·   Instant gratification because his needs are above all else in his mind.

· surrender because her will must reign, or there will be hell to pay.

·    whatever kind of sex he wants whenever he wants it because he thinks you were created to serve his sexual needs.

·  praise because she is a bottomless pit of need, and everyone needs to acknowledge that she is the best at everything. 

·       mindreading because he expects you to know what he needs and wants. 

·      appreciation because she is irritated that she has sacrificed so much to put up with you.

·      loyalty because he is sure he has given you much more than you deserve.

·       complete trust because she said so--not because of how she behaves.

In reality, you do not owe your abuser any of these things. The abuser is a human being who isn’t more elevated or special than the rest of the humans on the planet. He or she is a fallible, troubled individual who has lost touch with reality and is trying to coerce you into meeting his/her imagined needs and rights.



You are entitled to relationships that build you up rather than tear you down. You have the right to have healthy, two-way relationships with people who are kind to you. You don’t have to agree with others all the time. You should be able to ask for help meeting one of your needs without chaos and violence being meted out as punishment. You are entitled to feel safe in your own home. If someone you live with has stripped away your rights so that they can feel superior to you, consider whether entitlement is feeding abuse. Recognizing what is going on is the first step toward freedom.

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