Wednesday, June 5, 2013

He Said He Loved Me

He said he loved me
He opened the car door for me and gave me flowers
He said I was the only one who understood him
He said he wanted me to marry him

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He said he loved me
He hit our walls and gave me bruises
He said I didn't understand him
He said I must never leave him

He said he loved me
He talked at me, not with me, for exhausting hours
He said I wasn't helping him, just as no one else ever had
He said he needed me

He said he loved me
He told me he was right and threatened me
He said I must never say no to him 
He said he knew how to blow up my car

He said he loved me
I heard his words and hung on
I ignored his actions and paid the prices
I said I would never leave him

I loved who I thought he was
I loved who I hoped he could be
His behavior pushed me down and took all I had
His version of love made us both less

He didn't really know about love
His behavior was harmful to us both
I never could help him or fix him
I finally learned to say goodbye




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